When did you leave?
..and I still turn
to wherever I think
I heard your voice
How could you leave?
and your space inside
made my chest yearn
to hold you
Love
I'm spreading
thousands of my arms
to every direction
but don't touch you
shouting...
calling you..
with all the different names
I gave you
but don't reach you
..Where did you go?
and to whom you've left me?
Who will be on my side
when myself and time
turned against me
What am I supposed to do
with all the things
I have inside for you..?
I'm not complaining
but it's our memories
that are aching me
and I'm not crying...
tears are falling down from me
If you could just know
that I can't forgive myself
You were my baby
...till fate betrayed me
what's killing me
How could I
open that gate?
pretending blindness
knowing...it's fate
How could I
open my hand?
rich with dignity
beg what's not mine
To fill my soul..
..with you
Knowing..
if you failed me
it would be cold
and I'll end up with Winter
to lock up my world
...my tears will be frozen
tired
within seconds...
I'll be old
But how to ease
the humming memories?
how to relieve the pain
in my brain...?
How could I
follow my desire
knowing
it will turn into waiting
as I'll burn
within its fire
Now
I can't sleep
afraid
I don't dare
to close my eyes
and dream
although
you'll be there
...knowing soon
I'll wake up
and you're away
to burn again
I don't dare
A lie
within my hands
made and believed
within my hands
I lost somewhere
Your voice
I forgot myself
and got used to
...the night
How could I
cling to it's curtain
torn it
left it
in my hands
a beam of light
insane
...am I?
to mention your name
not knowing
how and why
Today
I've melted
specific letters in my veins
provisions for goodbye
if I could
I would unite us as one
till the day I die
I kissed my fortune
you and my soul as well
goodbye
watched you leaving
at dawn
with birds swarms
I remember Once
you told me
the choice's mine
and I took it
bought it
with my sleep
alert
bought it
with absence of mind..
and now...you're gone
To read my fortune
I opened my hand
read a lot
of what's not mine
all I had in you
was
waiting
....and fire
IN THE FIFTH DIMENSION
As I'm in the fifth dimension
and all what's after
...is beyond
my wisdom lines in silence
and as I write
my lines are empty
my papers are so white
as if I'm out of words
or my pen is out of ink
as if there are no fingers on my hand
As I'm in the fifth dimension
and beyond the beyond
the horizon is the nearest point
I can reach
other creatures without my sanity
animals and plants
right where they are
living their lives
trees have more freedom than I
As I'm in the fifth dimension
...or before
...or after
and all that's after is beyond
I live
with or without a life
I live
as I might be dead...alive
Here
waiting for some decent eyes...
to see myself through
to recognize who I am...
- Wham France "Paris" 16/5/1999
