I am writing because I saw your ad in Ben Boxer's Silverfoxes Clubhouse Personals and thought you sounded like an interesting man. I don't have an ad there. I've even been afraid to take a step like this and respond to one! I lost my wife two years ago. She was a good woman and a loving mother to our four children. Three boys and a girl. Well, three men, now, and a woman, that is. They are all married and have kids of their own, but they feel very protective of me. Overly protective, I guess. That makes them sort of nosy. They keep track of everything going on in my life. My daughter can't stand the thought of my being alone. She keeps after me to come and live with them. I guess that's her alternative to me getting married again - being a full time baby-sitter for her pre-teen boys! My sons, two of them, anyway, try to fix me up with old ladies they run into here and there. Church ladies, mostly, like their mom. There isn't any way I could tell them that I don't want another woman in my life. I need a man. Hey, did I say that? I never thought about it this way before. How does a guy like me come to terms with the concept that after all these years, since I had those feelings as a young man, maybe I really am gay? Well, I wonder if you'll bother to answer an old goat like me. Of course,
you're not so young yourself. I found your ad in my own age group. I don't think I could write this way to a younger man. It would be like coming on to one of my sons. You don't have to answer. I might not even send out this e-mail. No, I don't think I will.
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